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Funnnnn
Posts : 103 Join date : 2009-12-11 Age : 32 Location : Dallas, TX
| Subject: Ranting. Feel free to ignore it. Sun Dec 13, 2009 2:42 am | |
| Okay, so I kinda wanna get this all said on here where people can ignore it as opposed to ending up snapping and killing someone (sadly, not an exaggeration. I've come very close, and it gets closer every time.) I recommend ignoring it, since it's mostly me bitching about life in general. Nobody really wants to hear someone bitching about life. 'Nuff said.
Anyway. Just kinda feeling trapped at the moment. Frustrated cuz I'm doing bad in school, I can't actually afford food, the only reason I can get on the computer is cuz I'm taking out like $15000 in loans (so far), internet's free, and my mom gave me her old computer. Yeah, I know the doing bad in school thing is my fault. That doesn't mean I can't feel frustrated that I'm taking out $15000 in loans and still can't manage to get enough motivation to do my homework. I also feel like I'm kinda trapped in a persona I thought I'd escaped by moving 500 miles away. I was wrong. Friends from my old home came here too... I guess I shoulda seen that coming Hell, I enjoy having them around Still they still see me as the perverted, conceited fuckbag i once was I had actually managed to change but now my old friends'll be hanging out with me and someone'll say something about oh i'm a nice guy or something to that effect and my friends'll instinctively laugh cuz i really was a major dick before so now i've gotten back the image i was trying to get rid of of being a complete asshole and because i hate to see people be wrong (just one personality quirk of mine) i'm actually starting to act like a dick again and it kinda hurts seeing myself lose myself again if that sentence made any sense Also, i can't pay for anything because i don't have a job i don't have a job because like i said before i don't have any motivation to do anything never have really frustrating especially since i've tried countless things trying to get motivation but nothing ever seems to work well, i guess that's not true one thing did but that kinda fell in and it's never really gunna work again so yeah nothing seems to work and keep working i guess i should say tis also why i'm doing horrible and will probably lose a couple scholarships which'll probably kick that up to $15000 a year instead of $15000 so far ain't that happy joyness doesn't really help that my computer is dying and my electric guitar broke the other day (random info) to a degree that it would cost more to fix it than it would cost to get a new one sad thing is it was the most expensive thing i owned so now i'm having to borrow my dad's guitar until i can save up like $500 for a new guitar that's likely to break relatively soon anyway which brings up another thing i'm having to rely on my parents for everything it seems which really sucks since we actually don't get along at all never have so it makes things... interesting at best so religion is the only thing that ever really kills the feeling of being trapped even though not for very long at a time and yet i never actually manage to wake up before church ends so religion is pretty much out of my life makes things quite a bit more difficult also people always seem to point out that i don't wear clean clothes very often when truth is like i said i don't have any money and have no source of income so i have no laundry money so all my clothes are constantly dirty and there's not a damn thing i can do about it did manage to get my clothes washed a few days ago so that makes things a little better still irritating knowing that in 2 weeks i'ma have no clothes again right when my parents come up for christmas
anywayz yeah i'ma stop bitching otherwise this'll get way way way way way too long if you actually read all of this i appreciate you caring but sorry for making you listen to be bitch for [insert amount of time it took for you to read it] | |
| | | Lovable Admin
Posts : 198 Join date : 2009-11-24 Age : 33 Location : California
| Subject: Re: Ranting. Feel free to ignore it. Sun Dec 13, 2009 3:03 am | |
| ): TREVOR! I HOPE YOU FEEL BETTER SOON. & Just ignore your old friends, be yourself! Maybe you can just explain that you don't want to be a dick anymore & that if they can't accept you for who you are then you'll just have to get new friends. Seriously, never ever change for anyone!
& I NEVER thought you were a dick! It never even came close. I thought of you as a very nice person. Funny too.
Do you not live in dorms? Why do you have trouble getting your laundry done? D:
& I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL. I have no job either. But I'm working on that! (: I apply & stuff, but my parents don't trust me enough to let me drive so it's KINDA difficult. Still trying though.. Sigh. BUT YEAH. I don't get along very well with my parents either. I'm generally a very happy person, but my parents used to make me cry A LOT. It sucked. SO I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL ABOUT YOUR PARENTS.
& it's PERFECTLY OKAY TO RANT. I rant all the time, ahaha. People can be very annoying sometimes. Like the copycats, braggers, brats, liars, stalkers, YOU KNOW?! So I just rant rant rant, and hope I never see them again o__o; If you ever need to talk! Just mesage me on MSN or AIM or something! (:
I really hope you feel better! ):
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| | | iTom
Posts : 985 Join date : 2009-12-02 Age : 30 Location : Belgium
| Subject: Re: Ranting. Feel free to ignore it. Sun Dec 13, 2009 4:29 am | |
| oO I always liked you (and I still do :p) Trevor, and like Felicity said 'don't change for anyone' if they can't accept you for who you are then they're not worth being your friends! | |
| | | Funnnnn
Posts : 103 Join date : 2009-12-11 Age : 32 Location : Dallas, TX
| Subject: Re: Ranting. Feel free to ignore it. Sun Dec 13, 2009 6:33 am | |
| - Lovable wrote:
- ): TREVOR! I HOPE YOU FEEL BETTER SOON.
& Just ignore your old friends, be yourself! Maybe you can just explain that you don't want to be a dick anymore & that if they can't accept you for who you are then you'll just have to get new friends. Seriously, never ever change for anyone!
& I NEVER thought you were a dick! It never even came close. I thought of you as a very nice person. Funny too.
Do you not live in dorms? Why do you have trouble getting your laundry done? D:
& I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL. I have no job either. But I'm working on that! (: I apply & stuff, but my parents don't trust me enough to let me drive so it's KINDA difficult. Still trying though.. Sigh. BUT YEAH. I don't get along very well with my parents either. I'm generally a very happy person, but my parents used to make me cry A LOT. It sucked. SO I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL ABOUT YOUR PARENTS.
& it's PERFECTLY OKAY TO RANT. I rant all the time, ahaha. People can be very annoying sometimes. Like the copycats, braggers, brats, liars, stalkers, YOU KNOW?! So I just rant rant rant, and hope I never see them again o__o; If you ever need to talk! Just mesage me on MSN or AIM or something! (:
I really hope you feel better! ):
it's not so much they can't accept me changing as it is they don't believe i have/can ._.
when you met me, i'd already moved and spent some time working on the way i acted. they just moved here within the past 6 months hell, it's mostly one guy o3o and he happens to be my roommate ._.
i do live in dorms. and we pay for our own laundry. and i don't have money, so my laundry doesn't get done. money issues still.
sounds alot like my parents, except they trust me to drive. they just wouldn't let me get my license while i was living with them for insurance reasons. i actually still don't have it. probably gunna get it within the next few months though
thanks :]
- iTom wrote:
- oO I always liked you (and I still do :p) Trevor, and like Felicity said 'don't change for anyone' if they can't accept you for who you are then they're not worth being your friends!
you kidding me? only a few people ever did. i could actually list off the irl friends who accept me for who i am. | |
| | | iTom
Posts : 985 Join date : 2009-12-02 Age : 30 Location : Belgium
| Subject: Re: Ranting. Feel free to ignore it. Sun Dec 13, 2009 6:35 am | |
| I'm not kidding you and just keep closer to the friends that accept you for who you are. | |
| | | Funnnnn
Posts : 103 Join date : 2009-12-11 Age : 32 Location : Dallas, TX
| Subject: Re: Ranting. Feel free to ignore it. Sun Dec 13, 2009 6:38 am | |
| - iTom wrote:
- I'm not kidding you and just keep closer to the friends that accept you for who you are.
kinda hard when they're so rare :/ | |
| | | Funnnnn
Posts : 103 Join date : 2009-12-11 Age : 32 Location : Dallas, TX
| Subject: Re: Ranting. Feel free to ignore it. Sun Dec 13, 2009 6:38 am | |
| O.o my gawsh i need an avi | |
| | | iTom
Posts : 985 Join date : 2009-12-02 Age : 30 Location : Belgium
| Subject: Re: Ranting. Feel free to ignore it. Sun Dec 13, 2009 6:41 am | |
| Rare in what way? Cause if they can accept you for who you are you should try the same with them. | |
| | | Funnnnn
Posts : 103 Join date : 2009-12-11 Age : 32 Location : Dallas, TX
| Subject: Re: Ranting. Feel free to ignore it. Sun Dec 13, 2009 6:44 am | |
| rare that they accept me for who i am. at any rate, i need mah sleeplesauces, and it's almost 5am o3o and i have a final exam tomaro o3o as well as a study session for another one o3o g'night :3 | |
| | | iTom
Posts : 985 Join date : 2009-12-02 Age : 30 Location : Belgium
| | | | Funnnnn
Posts : 103 Join date : 2009-12-11 Age : 32 Location : Dallas, TX
| Subject: Re: Ranting. Feel free to ignore it. Sun Dec 13, 2009 6:45 am | |
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| | | Lovable Admin
Posts : 198 Join date : 2009-11-24 Age : 33 Location : California
| Subject: Re: Ranting. Feel free to ignore it. Sun Dec 13, 2009 3:42 pm | |
| [quote="Funnnnn"] - Lovable wrote:
- ): TREVOR! I HOPE YOU FEEL BETTER SOON.
& Just ignore your old friends, be yourself! Maybe you can just explain that you don't want to be a dick anymore & that if they can't accept you for who you are then you'll just have to get new friends. Seriously, never ever change for anyone!
& I NEVER thought you were a dick! It never even came close. I thought of you as a very nice person. Funny too.
Do you not live in dorms? Why do you have trouble getting your laundry done? D:
& I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL. I have no job either. But I'm working on that! (: I apply & stuff, but my parents don't trust me enough to let me drive so it's KINDA difficult. Still trying though.. Sigh. BUT YEAH. I don't get along very well with my parents either. I'm generally a very happy person, but my parents used to make me cry A LOT. It sucked. SO I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL ABOUT YOUR PARENTS.
& it's PERFECTLY OKAY TO RANT. I rant all the time, ahaha. People can be very annoying sometimes. Like the copycats, braggers, brats, liars, stalkers, YOU KNOW?! So I just rant rant rant, and hope I never see them again o__o; If you ever need to talk! Just mesage me on MSN or AIM or something! (:
I really hope you feel better! ):
it's not so much they can't accept me changing as it is they don't believe i have/can ._.
when you met me, i'd already moved and spent some time working on the way i acted. they just moved here within the past 6 months hell, it's mostly one guy o3o and he happens to be my roommate ._.
i do live in dorms. and we pay for our own laundry. and i don't have money, so my laundry doesn't get done. money issues still.
sounds alot like my parents, except they trust me to drive. they just wouldn't let me get my license while i was living with them for insurance reasons. i actually still don't have it. probably gunna get it within the next few months though
thanks :] THEN TELL THEM YOU CAN. Be like "I was doing perfectly fine being less of a jerk until you showed up >:O & if you can't accept me for who I really am, then I'm sorry you should get a new friend. & I suggest you get your act together too. Kthx" Hahah. I don't know how your friend is, so I'm not sure this is the way to handle it. I hope you find a solution to this. (:
& shouldn't dorms have a laundry room? It's kinda paid for when you pay for your dorm D: Maybe it's just University of Cali? Our dorm cost is like 12,000$ per year and then there's tuition and book costs. Totaling to around 27,000$ o__o;
I wish you lots of luck in getting a job! (: You can do it! Goooo Trevor :3 | |
| | | Funnnnn
Posts : 103 Join date : 2009-12-11 Age : 32 Location : Dallas, TX
| Subject: Re: Ranting. Feel free to ignore it. Sun Dec 13, 2009 5:22 pm | |
| [quote="Lovable"] - Funnnnn wrote:
- Lovable wrote:
- ): TREVOR! I HOPE YOU FEEL BETTER SOON.
& Just ignore your old friends, be yourself! Maybe you can just explain that you don't want to be a dick anymore & that if they can't accept you for who you are then you'll just have to get new friends. Seriously, never ever change for anyone!
& I NEVER thought you were a dick! It never even came close. I thought of you as a very nice person. Funny too.
Do you not live in dorms? Why do you have trouble getting your laundry done? D:
& I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL. I have no job either. But I'm working on that! (: I apply & stuff, but my parents don't trust me enough to let me drive so it's KINDA difficult. Still trying though.. Sigh. BUT YEAH. I don't get along very well with my parents either. I'm generally a very happy person, but my parents used to make me cry A LOT. It sucked. SO I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL ABOUT YOUR PARENTS.
& it's PERFECTLY OKAY TO RANT. I rant all the time, ahaha. People can be very annoying sometimes. Like the copycats, braggers, brats, liars, stalkers, YOU KNOW?! So I just rant rant rant, and hope I never see them again o__o; If you ever need to talk! Just mesage me on MSN or AIM or something! (:
I really hope you feel better! ):
it's not so much they can't accept me changing as it is they don't believe i have/can ._.
when you met me, i'd already moved and spent some time working on the way i acted. they just moved here within the past 6 months hell, it's mostly one guy o3o and he happens to be my roommate ._.
i do live in dorms. and we pay for our own laundry. and i don't have money, so my laundry doesn't get done. money issues still.
sounds alot like my parents, except they trust me to drive. they just wouldn't let me get my license while i was living with them for insurance reasons. i actually still don't have it. probably gunna get it within the next few months though
thanks :]
THEN TELL THEM YOU CAN. Be like "I was doing perfectly fine being less of a jerk until you showed up >:O & if you can't accept me for who I really am, then I'm sorry you should get a new friend. & I suggest you get your act together too. Kthx" Hahah. I don't know how your friend is, so I'm not sure this is the way to handle it. I hope you find a solution to this. (:
& shouldn't dorms have a laundry room? It's kinda paid for when you pay for your dorm D: Maybe it's just University of Cali? Our dorm cost is like 12,000$ per year and then there's tuition and book costs. Totaling to around 27,000$ o__o;
I wish you lots of luck in getting a job! (: You can do it! Goooo Trevor :3 yeah that wouldn't go well at all xD the dorm does have a laundry room. and it costs money to use the washers/dryers o3o our dorm + cafeteria only costs about $7000 a year. tuition and books seem to be the same as yours though O3o cuz our total comes out to around $22,500 O3o thanks n.n i actually applied somewhere, i'm just hoping to hear back | |
| | | Jinx
Posts : 686 Join date : 2009-12-03
| Subject: Re: Ranting. Feel free to ignore it. Sun Dec 13, 2009 6:11 pm | |
| When i first decided to become myself, many of my friends didn't accept me & some did.
As time progress-es You'll meet new people that'll really accept you for who you are. | |
| | | [{-KiDoNiTe-}]
Posts : 134 Join date : 2009-11-27 Age : 27 Location : a sorta secret secret place called home (i dont want stalkers so i wont tell you)
| Subject: Re: Ranting. Feel free to ignore it. Sun Dec 13, 2009 6:12 pm | |
| thats true and well when you do some poeple are just too cool to be with you that happens alot | |
| | | Funnnnn
Posts : 103 Join date : 2009-12-11 Age : 32 Location : Dallas, TX
| Subject: Re: Ranting. Feel free to ignore it. Mon Dec 14, 2009 3:00 am | |
| - Jinx wrote:
- When i first decided to become myself, many of my friends didn't accept me & some did.
As time progress-es You'll meet new people that'll really accept you for who you are. i know. i was able to be myself for a full year before it all went back D: - [{-KiDoNiTe-}] wrote:
- thats true and well when you do some poeple are just too cool to be with you that happens alot
maybe, but they'll usually just hanging out with me anyway xD when i'm able to let go and just be myself i dare say i'm a pretty damn lovable guy :3 | |
| | | Dragolfy
Posts : 105 Join date : 2009-11-29 Age : 34 Location : Florida, USA
| Subject: Re: Ranting. Feel free to ignore it. Mon Dec 14, 2009 6:51 pm | |
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| | | Funnnnn
Posts : 103 Join date : 2009-12-11 Age : 32 Location : Dallas, TX
| Subject: Re: Ranting. Feel free to ignore it. Tue Dec 15, 2009 3:32 am | |
| - Dragolfy wrote:
- OK... there are some things I can relate to and some things I can't.
Well, I'm starting to come out of the closet at school. So far my friends are accepting me.... well I wouldn't call them friends, more like classmates. I never really had true friends... but I have felt the pain of rejection in more ways than one and many times over. I don't want to rant on here, this is yours, Trevor. Online I'm the goofy smiling gay dude. But in real life... I'm the quiet creepy character in the corner of the classroom, afraid to talk to anyone. Damn it! Sorry! Ok back to you... *hugs* Hope some luck comes your way... I can tell you need more than just a friend right now... you need a new family or a true love to keep you more positive. I wish you the most of best of luck to you!
*hugs everyone else* I HOPE EVERYONE ELSE HAS BETTER LUCK TOO! I KNOW EVERYONE HAS THEIR OWN OBSTACLES, SO I WISH YOU ALL LUCK AS WELL! Nah, I'm done ranting xD I just need to let out a rant every few months to keep myself sane At this point, feel free to just use this as a ranting thread :3 | |
| | | Augussie
Posts : 75 Join date : 2010-01-18 Location : Australia
| Subject: Re: Ranting. Feel free to ignore it. Mon Jan 18, 2010 11:01 am | |
| wanna kno how i got motivation in stuff? =D me dad yelling at me for 2 hours FINALLY woke me up :3
get someone to yell at ya? :3 works for me -3- cuz he told me how much he worried about me which is something i really dont want~
another thing u can try go to some where ~ and scream ur head off til u get hoarse -3-
*worried about yoh D:* | |
| | | iTom
Posts : 985 Join date : 2009-12-02 Age : 30 Location : Belgium
| Subject: Re: Ranting. Feel free to ignore it. Mon Jan 18, 2010 11:07 am | |
| There are always more people that care about you then you actually realize. I just passed quiet a hard period (no details for now) =/ But I did notice that many people cared and that definitely helped me a lot. | |
| | | Augussie
Posts : 75 Join date : 2010-01-18 Location : Australia
| Subject: Re: Ranting. Feel free to ignore it. Mon Jan 18, 2010 11:15 am | |
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| | | Jinx
Posts : 686 Join date : 2009-12-03
| Subject: Re: Ranting. Feel free to ignore it. Mon Jan 18, 2010 1:05 pm | |
| LOL, WOAH this post is old | |
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